I hope that everyone is doing well. I’m not going to lie last week, as well as this weekend could have been better. I felt like I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I could barely keep up with anything. My blog didn’t get much attention, my house was a disaster and I just felt worn down. Then on Friday Aubrie spilled some water on my laptop. I quickly turned off my laptop and tried to dry it. I thought I had done a good job, but when I went to turn it on Sunday (so we could watch Mass) I realized a few buttons wouldn’t work. I had to look up my church on my phone so I could email myself the link to watch Mass. Thankfully Matt was able to check it out, and determined I just needed a new keyboard. He ordered it Sunday, it came Monday and he installed it. I am so grateful I didn’t need a new laptop. That would have sucked.
Besides that, I’ve honestly just been in a funk. I try to keep things upbeat, but also want to keep it real. After Valentine’s Day my pageviews on my blog tanked. I think I had a few pins that had been doing well, but because they were seasonal they stopped doing so great. I’ve been tying so hard to work with the new way Pinterest want creators to pin, and it’s a lot. It’s really hard when you put in a lot of work, but don’t really see anything in return. I try not to get jealous of those bloggers who are rocking it (or people who start businesses, or those with successful Etsy stores) , but I won’t lie, jealousy rears its ugly head. And I know that they are putting in the work, and I am so happy for them, and try my best to support them, but still wish I could see some more success. It’s a strange mix of emotions.
While I had so many plans for the blog for this month, I am finding it very hard to get motivated. I’m just sort of blah. So I’m trying to spend more quality time with my kids. Getting outside and playing, or simply just being with them. Doing more crafts. Ones that I am not worried about blogging about. Just things that bring me joy. All this to say I am not 100% sure what my presence will be on my blog in the future. I don’t think I’m ready to give it up, as I love connecting with others, and I love it gives me an identity other than mom. Which also plays with my mind, because I feel guilty not being completely satisfied with being a mom. I love being a mom, and am grateful that I can stay at home with my kids, but don’t want SAHM to be my only identity, because what happens when my kids grow up, and then it’s just me at home?
If you made it this far, thank you for reading my brain dump. I suppose I wrote this to be honest, but also to let you know if you having a rough time, you are not alone. So, for the time being my posts may be hit or miss (or they may be consistent), I honestly don’t know. Thank you for being a reader and supporting me through my ups and downs.