Ok folks, I usually try to keep things upbeat, but today I’m getting real.
We all know motherhood can be overwhelming, and lately it has been.
Autumn is getting to that stage where she doesn’t easily go down for her naps. I often have to run up and down the stairs to put her binky back in. When she does go to sleep, her naps are only 45 minutes. Since the naps are so short she can’t stay awake for long, which means I feel confined to the house, or stressed with the thought of going out.
Then there is this:
This napping situation is making it hard to blog and sew (case in point, I am finishing up this blog post as I am nursing Autumn at night).
Thank goodness for coffee. Today was a two cup day (timed of course based on Autumn’s nursing).
Yesterday I read something funny on Facebook, which totally resonated: Don’t cry over spilled milk. Unless it’s breastmilk, then go ahead and cry.
You see that… it’s a wasted bottle. I’ve been trying to Autumn to take a bottle so I can get out and about for a bit longer without kids, or take Annabelle to a playgroup she goes to. I hate pumping, and it usually takes 2-3 sessions to get a bottle ( to all of you exclusively pumping mommas, wow). She has only taken a bottle once, so leaving her is stressful since I have to be home to feed her.
So why am I sharing this? After I started staying home with Annabelle (I had to finish out the school year) I got in a bit of a rut. I just wasn’t happy. Being alone with a tiny human who was solely dependent on me was hard. It wasn’t until I broke down at a 4th of July party (after yet another person asked where Annabelle was) that I realized how depressed I was. Going from teaching and being around coworkers to staying at home was hard. I talked to my OB, and joined a moms’ club. That helped so much.
Linking up with Beth at Tuesday Talk